It feels like I spend a great deal of my time trying to find a balance, or a compromise, between the extremes that can be so much a part of my nature. I will bounce back and forth between being extroverted and introverted, despite the fact that I am essentially a shy person. I can go from extremely erudite language to making a sailor blush. And in strength, I can become more open-hearted or entirely closed off.
But much of the way I need to find my balance doesn’t involve anything more than my choices. I can choose to not allow the strength I need to harden my heart, just as I can choose how this chemo is going to affect my body. So far, my immune system isn’t showing the crash that normally would come.
I read before chemo started that Love was what cures Cancer more effectively than anything else, and this from a medical doctor.
It’s true. The Love I have around me, and the Love I hold within me bring me the greatest healing in this whole thing. It is all positivity, and like one long prayer being said over me constantly.
I am blessed, and send all of you blessings today (as everyday)…